Angels World

HI Moulin thanks for the reply… Now the plot thicken …Oh and before i forget I am so happy for you that the Prom was great!!!
Okay here I go with my strange thoughts and week-end here lol. This past Sunday was date number 3 with this new fellow. Now I am completely baffled and confused, which is something I do not get very often. This date was set up earlier in the weekstarted out I was going to stay at his place however I sort of chickened out as there would be little privacy for us there. Not much here either but at least we can sneak away to go and talk. He rode his 72 Harley Sportser out for the week-end to see me, So we snuck away as often as possible for a ride on the Harley. Sunday we were gone for a few hrs as I needed to be home in time for daughter to go to work and to babysit my grandson. But heck was my first ride on a Harley and I loved it. We spent the afternoon just hanging around the house playing with the baby and watching the tv and talking to my mom online. Daughter got home from work around midnight from work and she and baby went to bed so my fella and I could talk more and do a little smooching lol. He finally fell asleep around 4 a.m on my twin size bed rotfl. So I made a bed out of pillows and crashed on the floor.
We woke up around 10 Monday morning showered in different bathrooms thank the stars I have 2 bathrooms here and then got dressed and off we went again on his Harley…. Today was 3 hrs riding and getting lost while enjoying each others company. Here is where my confusion comes in though,,,,, I know I have told him that I am thinking with my head and not my heart and I have walls of stone and a protection spell on me to make sure I do not screw up. After spending til we hrs of the morning kissing and talking I was left bewildered. I could love this guy to death in a heart beat but when we kissed there was no sparks there. My mom seems to think this may be because I am protecting myself in everyway possible.Mt tarots, runes and keys all tell me he is the one but yet i fight it…I need to send him an e-mail later telling him we need to slow this down as I am getting very confused and need to make sure I am not jumping the wrong way here. Anyways I need to get some sleep here my meds for pain are kicking in and kicking my butt here. Will finish this later today with a new entry.. Bye for now——- Angel

Okay yesterday was date number 2 . We had our last chaperoned date thank the stars!!! It was so awesome just to spend some time alone with him and get to know him better and I am sure vice versa as far as he feels too. We took very long walks several of them throughout the day and talked for endless hrs. I loved the walk down on the beach the most as we were right at the water line and away from everyone else.
The evening was awesome as well we watched the sunset together making our own new special memories. The evening at the beach came to an end and homeward bound to my place we went.
We got back to my place and still spent some good quality time together just huggimg and holding hands and talking. He and his family loaded up their car and headed home 50 miles away. When it was time for them to leave I got some of the most loving hugs from him…. I so badly wanted him to stay and hold me longer however know that in time this will happen.
I have spoken with him once today so far and am ever so patiently awaiting his arrival online here now. Today has not been the best day for me here. I just so want to just crawl into a hole and pull the entire cosmos in over the top of me never to be seen or heard from again. The soon to be ex has completely done a number on my head all evening here and now am having anxiety attacks from a totally different dimension. Hmmmm am wondering if there is a spell of protection I can put around me and those I love to protect us from his wrath. More me than the kids.. He is hitting below the belt and pushing all the right buttons, but then again he has had several yrs to learn where i am the most vulnerable to hit as well.
Oh well enough mumbling for tonight ..will update tomorrow after a good nights sleep hope.
Angel

Things are getting very strange in this world of mine. Husband and I separated a while back, he still lives here as a room-mate only to help make rent. We are both dating others now which is where my world is now changing. I have met a wonderful man who I swear is my twin. We are both the same zodiac sign, both of the same ethnic background and we both finish each others thoughts and sentences. In essense he is the man of my dreams someone identical to myself.
I have been running the numbers here tonight read my tarots,my runes, everything points to this man I am dating. We have actually had one official date so far, however have been speaking daily online or on the telephone daily now for almost a month. Our first date was a Family day out on Mothers Day at a local park which looks out over the cliffs and on to the ocean. There are just so many things alike with he and I right down to having adult children and grandchildren living at home with us. We are both very family oriented we love our children and grandchildren and speak of our families daily.
So I keep asking myself Angel girl what is the problem here???? He is the man of your dreams, everything in common, intelligent, he worries about me, and gets very concerned when I am sick or in relapse here. He see’s the real me the inner beauty, He loves me for who I am and does not complain that I have lost too much weight to be with me now. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that my husband of 5 yrs would be unhappy with my choice of WLS in December, we discussed it in great detail months and months before hand and he said you need to do this so we can grow old together. Geesh what a joke. I have now gone from 270 lbs to 155 in less than 6 months with this surgery. For the first time in years I really like who I am and I love the new me…
Maybe after date number 2 this Saturday once again chaperoned by the girls and the grandchildren I will be more at ease with myself and the decision at hand. I love the fact that this fella I am seeing is so in tune with me and has no problems with the kids being along with us for family outtings on our dates. He understands what I mean when I tell him I am very old fashioned and have very strong morals…. this means so much to me. The funny thing is he is the one that sent me to this website and he shares my interest and enthusiasm in my beliefs. I do believe since we are both from Celtic backgrounds I will also have him look around on our date for something to make our talismans out of and maybe I will make us matching talismans to wear close to our hearts. I do believe though I shall see how the beginning of the day goes Saturday before making this decision as well.
Well if you can’t tell by now I know what I should be doing, However I am fighting the feeling and my rebellious side is telling me to proceed with extreme caution here. Thus is why the title for todays entry “What do you do when dreams come true?” Do I accept what the angels are sending my ways or do I continue to proceed with extreme caution here? Well as it is late here now I am going to sign off and will write more later today, maybe a good rest will help clear a few of the cobwebs out here.
Angel

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