Angels World

Okay yesterday was date number 2 . We had our last chaperoned date thank the stars!!! It was so awesome just to spend some time alone with him and get to know him better and I am sure vice versa as far as he feels too. We took very long walks several of them throughout the day and talked for endless hrs. I loved the walk down on the beach the most as we were right at the water line and away from everyone else.
The evening was awesome as well we watched the sunset together making our own new special memories. The evening at the beach came to an end and homeward bound to my place we went.
We got back to my place and still spent some good quality time together just huggimg and holding hands and talking. He and his family loaded up their car and headed home 50 miles away. When it was time for them to leave I got some of the most loving hugs from him…. I so badly wanted him to stay and hold me longer however know that in time this will happen.
I have spoken with him once today so far and am ever so patiently awaiting his arrival online here now. Today has not been the best day for me here. I just so want to just crawl into a hole and pull the entire cosmos in over the top of me never to be seen or heard from again. The soon to be ex has completely done a number on my head all evening here and now am having anxiety attacks from a totally different dimension. Hmmmm am wondering if there is a spell of protection I can put around me and those I love to protect us from his wrath. More me than the kids.. He is hitting below the belt and pushing all the right buttons, but then again he has had several yrs to learn where i am the most vulnerable to hit as well.
Oh well enough mumbling for tonight ..will update tomorrow after a good nights sleep hope.
Angel

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