What do you do when dreams come true?
Things are getting very strange in this world of mine. Husband and I separated a while back, he still lives here as a room-mate only to help make rent. We are both dating others now which is where my world is now changing. I have met a wonderful man who I swear is my twin. We are both the same zodiac sign, both of the same ethnic background and we both finish each others thoughts and sentences. In essense he is the man of my dreams someone identical to myself.
I have been running the numbers here tonight read my tarots,my runes, everything points to this man I am dating. We have actually had one official date so far, however have been speaking daily online or on the telephone daily now for almost a month. Our first date was a Family day out on Mothers Day at a local park which looks out over the cliffs and on to the ocean. There are just so many things alike with he and I right down to having adult children and grandchildren living at home with us. We are both very family oriented we love our children and grandchildren and speak of our families daily.
So I keep asking myself Angel girl what is the problem here???? He is the man of your dreams, everything in common, intelligent, he worries about me, and gets very concerned when I am sick or in relapse here. He see’s the real me the inner beauty, He loves me for who I am and does not complain that I have lost too much weight to be with me now. I never imagined in my wildest dreams that my husband of 5 yrs would be unhappy with my choice of WLS in December, we discussed it in great detail months and months before hand and he said you need to do this so we can grow old together. Geesh what a joke. I have now gone from 270 lbs to 155 in less than 6 months with this surgery. For the first time in years I really like who I am and I love the new me…
Maybe after date number 2 this Saturday once again chaperoned by the girls and the grandchildren I will be more at ease with myself and the decision at hand. I love the fact that this fella I am seeing is so in tune with me and has no problems with the kids being along with us for family outtings on our dates. He understands what I mean when I tell him I am very old fashioned and have very strong morals…. this means so much to me. The funny thing is he is the one that sent me to this website and he shares my interest and enthusiasm in my beliefs. I do believe since we are both from Celtic backgrounds I will also have him look around on our date for something to make our talismans out of and maybe I will make us matching talismans to wear close to our hearts. I do believe though I shall see how the beginning of the day goes Saturday before making this decision as well.
Well if you can’t tell by now I know what I should be doing, However I am fighting the feeling and my rebellious side is telling me to proceed with extreme caution here. Thus is why the title for todays entry “What do you do when dreams come true?” Do I accept what the angels are sending my ways or do I continue to proceed with extreme caution here? Well as it is late here now I am going to sign off and will write more later today, maybe a good rest will help clear a few of the cobwebs out here.
Angel